Why is it weird, at times, to be Bisexual?

[cocoerica]

I have been dating my girlfriend for about six months now (I know her from biloves.com). Even though I've known her for over a year and have been close to her like a boy friend during msost of that time. Plus, I live with her now, thousands of miles away form my birth state New York. We are madly in love. Cupids fly out of our asses when we are together. There seems to be no problems, except fo the undenable fact that I still think of men. Not so much women. It feels so strange to be in love with someone so deep and yet still thinking about those wild times when you were still in college and experimenting. Granted, this doesn't happen twenty-four seven but it still happens on occasion and kinda bothers me.

One situation that still bugs me is what happened last night. I had a dream I gave oral to a hunky guy. What makes this so bad is that I woke up in bed, next to my girl friend, realizing that I was grinding against her ass while I spooned with her in my sleep. This is hysteriacal, yes, but a delema for me. I should be happy though that my girl friend is very respective of my sexuality. She even lets me keep my girly mags and man porn. However, It still drives me crazy when things like this happen. It makes me feel aweful. I am not giving into temptaion though so that's a good thing.